Throwback poems part 5

The next two poems were written about the boy that mislead me and totally broke my heart and cost me my best friend (same situation as in the previous two posts). These focus more on the intimate details...  I really had trouble dealing with the fact that he and I fooled around AFTER he had "hooked up" with my other friend. For what ever reason I felt guilty, when I should have just been pissed at him, lol!  I did end up being friends w/ the "girl" again, but we were never as close as before.  I am friends with the "boy" on fb, I am civil, but still would like an apology, haha, I know he gave the other girl one...doubt it will ever happen, oh well.

"Loss of Innocence"

You were my sweet summer crush.
Together we did so much.
Our few moments of pleasure were fun.
But now I'm left with wounded friendships,
and eternal pain with bitter sweet memories.
We may not have went "all the way"'
but we went too far.
I wish we could go back in time,
and erase the mistakes that were made.
My mind is forever tainted
with memories of our afternoons together.
The smallest things can trigger a flashback.
The flashbacks are vivid and haunting.
Each including sight, smell, sound, and feel.
Our innocence is lost and the pain enduring.
The only thing to do now is pray for forgiveness.
We must also forgive each other,
put the past behind us,
and pray for strength not to repeat our mistakes.
-RAM

"Confused"

Last summer's events have left me confused.
The things we did left me feeling used.
To one girl, you said you were "true",
Yet everything started with a call from you.
I'll never forget the sound of your voice on the other line,
or the feeling of your arms around me for long periods of time.
We were just friends, you swore,
 But your actions made my heart sense more.
You always knew the right thing to say,
and my heart melted every time you looked at me a certain way.
Just the scent of you sent me to ecstasy.
And I went even further when you put your hands on me.
With my hands on you I felt like I could fly.
Body to body all my troubles went away.
It all came to an abrupt end,
When you fell"in love" with my best friend.
You ruined a good friendship,
for your temporary relationship.
You're back with the one who you are "true",
And I'm back with my best friend no thanks to you.
I don't see how you could lead me on like you did,
and then leave me feeling like a scared little kid.
I'm left forever confused and abused.
-RAM