"My Prayer"

I wrote this poem a little more than 10 years ago.  I had been terribly betrayed by the two people who I thought were my best friends. To make a long story short they started dating behind my back, and then used me to get together for a long time and when they no longer need me as an excuse to get together I was kicked to the curb.  I of course had some feelings for the boy and was very mislead by him as well.  It was not a pretty time in my life.  The next few poems I will post are also from this period in my life.  I'm amazed though at how true these words still are with totally different trials...



I'm sorry God.
I've done you wrong.
I've forgotten you gave Your only Son.
He bared the weight of all my sins,
so that I may be with You.
I've forgotten that You are forgiving
and like You I must too forgive.
But, I've kept bitterness locked inside me
making my heart cold and hard.
Jealousy has also run through my veins,
causing my focus to drift away from You.
Once I lost sight of You depression set in.
Things looked down and my hope was lost.
I'm putting focus back on You, God.
I'll stay on my knees this time,
so my next fall into Your hands won't be as hard.
With You, loneliness fades and hope comes to life.
You are my strength and comfort.
Thank you God for everything.
Your forgiveness is great
and mercy sufficient.
Your love is powerful.
My small heart's love is not sufficient.
But, I love You with my whole being.
Thank you God for everything.
-RAM