Throwback Poems Part 2

I wrote these poems about 12 years ago about a boy I had a crush on...

"My Heart's Plea"
You said your actions were for me
So you wouldn't break my heart when you leave
But I know it was a lie,
and that you're just afraid of love,
scared of a broken heart.
Well, your cowardliness is breaking mine.
When you said we would be friends
you were just being kind,
for we haven't spoke in weeks,
and you say I annoy you.
I know that's not true!
I know you like me.
You can't hide love,
You're just afraid to show it
And you run away.
You're building a wall around your heart
You can't run forever.
Your own logical brain will be your demise,
unless you learn to follow your heart.
Logic tells you high school flings are useless.
but my heart screams, "It is better to have loved and lost, than never loved at all!"

"Relapse"
My heart aches "I love you"
but my mind screams "No"
I thought I was over you,
but I guess that's not so.
Your silence showed me it was not meant to be,
but then you showed up joking and laughing with me.
You put on your charm and drew me back in.
Why are you doing this to me?
I want to move on,
but I can't.
There is a never-ending force that keeps pulling me back
Until this feeling will pass,
I can not be at rest.
In a never-ending battle I give continuously,
but get nothing in return.
I opened my heart,
and you gave a shrug and turned away
but it seems like my love is here to stay
like everything else I'm sure it will pass
I'm getting impatient,
and time moves so slowly.

"Get Out"
You're always on my mind,
it isn't hard to find.
I close my eyes and see your face,
an image I can not erase.
I just can't seem to kill,
this hole in my heart I need to fill.
I open my eyes and you're still here.
I can see you everywhere.
I can't get you out of my head.
Sometimes I wish I was dead,
that would be the only way to get you off my mind.
A thought of you isn't hard to find.