Storm clouds

I feel like my head has been stuck in a storm cloud for a few weeks now...  I just haven't been feeling well, I think it's just a culmination of different things.  Mostly stress related to not having money.  It really really really sucks to be broke.  Whoever said money doesn't solve problems, clearly didn't have problems that cost money, lol!  The lose of my job has really hit hard, it was nice to have enough to got out to eat friday night and put gas in the van and go out to eat with a friend every now and then.  I did finally get another job, and it helps, but I'm only making about half what I made before.  My husband just finished a 2 week lay off so things were really tight for that.  I just had to get a new credit card just for medical expenses for a root canal and crown.  I'm finished with the root canal part, but still have to get the crown done.  The whole process will cost  $1412, if we get it paid off in the promotional period where there is no interest.  Talk about stress....  And that's with really good dental insurance!!!  I'm super stressed about getting that first bill!  But it needed to be done, I was in so much pain I couldn't sleep and had to eat ibuprofen like candy.

So then on top of all that, I have been off birth control for about 15 months now and still no baby....  I try really hard not to think about it, but every month I seem to get my hopes up and it doesn't help that everyone we run into asks if we are going to have another one.  It just makes me depressed to think about it...There are like 6, 7, and 8 years between siblings in my family and my husbands.  We had talked about that and said we really don't want that, but at this point it's looking more and more like what is going to happen, if I'm able to get pregnant again.  I know there is no way we could ever afford fertility treatments of any kind, or even afford an adoption.  So who knows what the future holds...